love.

“When I find your eyes
where I am and who I’m with
just stops mattering.”

- Daily Haiku on Love by Tyler Knott Gregson

When I find Your eyes Jesus.

life.

Isaiah 43:1-2
but now, thus says the LORD, who created you, O Jacob, and He who formed you, O Israel:
"Fear not; for I have redeemed you,
I have called you by your name;
You are Mine.
When you pass through the waters, I will be with you;
and through the rivers, they shall not overflow you.
When you walk through the fire,
you shall not be burned,
Nor shall the flame scorch you..."

Isaiah 43:18-19
"Do not remember the former things,
Nor consider the things of old.
Behold, I will do a new thing,
Now it shall spring forth;
Shall you not know it?
I will even make a road in the wilderness
and rivers in the desert."

Isaiah 43:25
"I, even I, am He who blots out your transgressions for My sake;
and I will not remember your sins."

letting it all sink it. nothing quite like the Word. i don't exactly understand how and why life springs forth again in my heart when i spend time in the Word, but i just know it does. should really set aside more time for it.

fellowship.

on a separate note. i really love good fellowship. when the people of God gather, share their lives and bare their wounds. no pretense, no false fronts, no superficiality, no judgement. but a gathering of imperfect people before a perfect God.

i find those moments so precious. and these people, even if not really close at first, become close from the common denominator inside them, the same Holy Spirit that guides and molds us all, as we walk through life.

those moments linger long after everyone has split up and gone home. and the Spirit seems to sing with the goodness of what had occurred.

maybe because God had meant for us to enjoy moments such as these. that's why the Spirit radiates with contentment of what had occurred before, in complete agreement.

as iron sharpens iron, so does a man sharpen the countenance of his friend.

Lord, every friendship that You've given, thank You Daddy God that it will be maintained by You.

my strength does not lie in maintaining friendships, i know that well. many times, i have so many things going on, like right now, that i don't even have the time to do what needs to be done in my own life. and can't meet up with people that i miss so very much.

so i'm just gonna trust You Jesus. if it's for You, it will be done by You. may Your favor always be upon me, that their memory of me will always be blessed. may every encounter always be full of Your fragrance, whether the time spent is long or short. always precious, never taken for granted. give me wisdom and understanding, ears that listen, lips that speak forth grace, and a heart that is tender and quieted with Your love, gracious and at rest. knowing that You love me, and have not withheld any good thing from me. a heart with a good opinion of You, and bring that with me in every place i walk into.

i'd like to see the world through Your eyes. the Daddy God-kind of perspective.

learning to breathe.

sometimes, people don't realize how what they say has an effect on others. long after people have gone home, those words can keep ringing.

but i wanna rise above that, rise beyond that.

yes it hurts, sometimes it just feels like, "was that really necessary?"

but i've been guilty of it before too.

maybe i am what you say i am. but i'm not perfect. that's why i need Jesus.

sorry if i don't meet your perfect standards, but then again who does?

that's why i need God. and that's why Jesus went to the cross for me. to meet every benchmark on my behalf, because in and of myself, i would never ever be able to.

i am still a work in progress. what was said may be true Lord, and i don't want to be such a person either. Change me, quicken me, according to Your will, according to Your loving kindness.

one day, Daddy God, let me look back on this and laugh. teach and lead me, love me unto wholeness again. lift me up above the words and opinions of others. i choose to keep the joy and the peace that You have given to me.

You've borne every condemnation on my behalf, i receive Your righteousness, Your love that will never ever fail me.

I am a princess by birth, not by any worth of my own. anything i have and i am, is only by the grace of God. i receive it undeserving. and nothing anyone may say can ever change that.



i choose to let it go into Your hands. and be happy. the abundant life is meant to be enjoyed.

Stuck.

“Am I what you need
when everything falls apart?
Am I glue to You?”

- Daily Haiku on Love by Tyler Knott Gregson


it's like a question from God.

sian ttm. always too many things happening. one life, many areas. sometimes i just wish i was a hermit in a cave, away from all the problems, all the issue, all the work.

if only life was made out of fun and rainbows. and it was all simpler. why do things have to be so complicated.

Lord, You make it work out for my good. It's not the end until it glorifies You.

Your love will never ever fail me. let hope rise once more.

my future is bright, Your plans are good, You're still on the throne.



God is good all the time. and all the time God is good.

In Your eyes.

Lord, let it sink in again and again. Convince me and love me afresh, every moment, everyday.

QOTD

saw this on tumblr.

“There is a sacredness in tears. They are not the mark of weakness but of power. They are messengers of overwhelming grief and of unspeakable love.”

- Washington Irving (via quote-book)



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on a less happy note:

“Silence is a girl’s loudest cry. You can always tell she’s really hurt when she starts ignoring you.”

- (via pretty-bird)

hurhurhur.

sleep deprivation

totally didn't get a wink of sleep last night. i don't even feel like i have the energy to be upset.

in school by 7.30am, and i have class until 5.

feel like skipping out on class and going for a massage. my shoulders hurt.

this is a whining post, i know. after 5 hours of tossing and turning, psalm 23, praying in tongues, journalling and still remaining awake, just for today, i think i'm entitled.

no, i have no idea what's bugging me.

just that my mind is very awake.

i think it bugs me that i don't know what's bugging me.

sensing i'm losing coherence here.

Be starry-eyed

“Don’t allow your wounds to transform you into someone you are not.”

- Paulo Coelho


You are greater than what you are going/ have gone through. Let hope rise. And watch God transform those scars of today into the stars of tomorrow.

hearthfires

"The great love is gone. There are still little loves - friend to friend, brother to sister, student to teacher. Will you deny yourself comfort at the hearthfire of a cottage because you may no longer sit by the fireplace of a palace? Will you deny yourself to those who reach out to you in hopes of warming themselves at your hearthfire?"
— Mercedes Lackey (Magic's Pawn)

one of my favourite quotes from a fiction book ever. been stuck in my head for awhile.