okay, this is going to be a long post. read carefully, i hope it well bless you as it did me, because the more i typed the more Jesus opened up to me and the more i had to type.
pastor's message today was great. while the message was meant to bless families and offer direction to parents, i feel that as a child, i was lent an inside view into the mentality and the perspective that parents approach things from as well. and it helped me understand much of what i had gone through, am still going through and why. i felt really blessed. yet having pastor already expound on that part, maybe i'll just talk about something else that really jumped out at me during service in the course of one of pastor's rabbit trails.
Pastor mentioned that Jesus doesn't just sympathise - in the modern context of the word - with how we feel. He feels what we feel, whenever we're happy or sad. (ref Hebrews 4:15) i don't know about the rest of you, but that was important to me. it gave me assurance on a deeper level. more than just a Saviour who dwells in you, who offers you unconditional love and support - though without doubt, all of that is already infinitely precious - we have a Saviour who has the ability to feel exactly how you feel. and just as children - or rather, people who in general require someone to simply listen to them more than offer advice (we can come to our own conclusions yeah? ;) ) Jesus doesn't just listen and understand on a verbally communicated basis, He understands it through His own experiencing of it as well - in feeling what you feel. and that establishes His position doesn't it? the song Iris by the GooGoo Dolls going, " and i don't want the world to see me, cause i don't think that they'd understand", made the song a huge hit. and all of us understand why. cause we've all felt that way before. why bother telling someone who doesn't understand? but more than anyone else, He shows us that He does.
and now, perhaps to continue on what pastor had mentioned, i think its important that we realise the difference between that acceptance of feelings and the action that we act out with reference to the action. as pastor mentioned just now, its important that parents are able to differentiate between the child saying "i FEEL like i don't want..." and "i don't want...". One's a feeling the other is an action.
and as a child myself (believe me i know) how it can be difficult, how it can be annoying and how it can be hurtful when parents don't listen. trust me, when pastor gave analogies, at so many points i almost felt he was talking about me, so much that i teared up in my seat, haha.
but likewise, perhaps i will share some stuff that Jesus has shared with me before. just as parents have to differentiate, children have to be able to differentiate as well (okay, i'm assuming that since you're reading my blog, you're at least over twelve years of age here)
let me explain what i mean here. lets say, i give the analogy of child A getting angry with brother B and lets say, shouts at him. so the parent comes over, and scolds the child, "how can you shout at your brother?" ok, question: what is the parent upset about? what is the scolding here directed at? like pastor mentioned, feelings are not moral - they aren't exactly right or wrong. rather, how we act upon the feelings dictate their "rightness" so to speak. the scolding here is not directed at the child getting angry. its that the child shouted at someone. there's a difference. is there anyone who hasn't gotten angry before? even the nicest person has limits. but the action that translated out of that anger is the part that is wrong, not the anger itself. parents have to realise that and differentiate it. and children have to know that as well.
another thing that pastor brought up was the time that Jesus had mentioned (i'm para-phrasing here), how different are you from the world if you smile at someone who smiles at you, wave at someone who waves at you? like myself, some of you may have parents who aren't saved yet, and them not knowing Jesus is difficult for them as human beings (you should know the difference yourself), which may sometimes translate into how they treat you. it takes someone bigger of heart to love someone who does not deserve to be loved. as children of God who are supported and supplied with the love we require to love others, do you think its easier to love for us, or for someone who doesn't have Jesus and draws out any love they exhibit out of their own limited supply?
this may sound terrible and shocking, but in a world like the one we're in today, parents aren't obligated to love their children. think of all the baby dumping, the abortions and what-have-yous that exist today? but maybe we should see that having decided to love us - yes, even in their own imperfect ways - perhaps we should already be rejoicing that they love us and remain with us at all? we tend to cherish friendship and endeavour to spend time with our friends because we ATTACH A VALUE to the love that we receive from them. perhaps its because we expect our parents to be always there, that we under-value them, and in turn, makes it difficult for us to show that we or even to just simply appreciate them..
i remember once, pastor mentioned that when you love someone, you should love them the way that they want to be loved. at that moment, i understood that, but received it in 2 different ways. i understood what pastor meant, that people interpret love differently and in order for you to have done something that they interpret to be love, it requires you to have done it in their language of love. for example, if someone hates flowers and loves cookies, but you hate cookies and give them flowers, they won't feel loved, cause they hate the way you showed that you loved them when you bought them flowers! if you really love them, you would buy them cookies because you know that'e what they appreciate, and they in turn will register it as love. you love them the way they know it to be loved, not the way you want to love them.
i understood that, but applied that to the people around me. i thought, see they don't understand. thoughts of "why can't they, why must they, why couldn't they" just filled my mind, and before i knew it, i had condemned many around me. but one day the Lord asked me, " what about you?" it surprised me. then i realised that perhaps, these people didn't realise what they were doing. unlike myself, they didn't know about loving people the way they should be loved but having been from a different generation, just as their parents before them, they loved the only way they knew how. this was the way they had been treated, so sub-consciously, this is what they register to be the definition of parental love, and thus, this is what they show. And myself, in condemning them - whether i meant to or not, it doesn't matter - in not realising and interpreting their language of love, was doing the exact same thing they were doing to me, not loving them they way they wanted to be and interpreted love to be.
i hope you caught all that and it blessed you. and now i just caught something with reference to righteousness according to what pastor preached about rightesousness today. so even if you haven't exactly caught all that just now, catch this:
pastor mentioned that feelings are amoral, neither right nor wrong. let's take a look at that in reference to us believing that we're righteous. many times, when we do something that we feel is wrong, whether intentionally or unintentionally, we can end up wrought with guilt and condemnation - let's be real here yeah? but the thing is, here's the crux. the conviction of righteousness that the Holy Spirit accuses us of is based on the cross - that our feelings are not important and do not dictate our value, as the cross has paid for everything already. rather than feelings of condemnation or whatever translating into worse actions (remember: condemnation kills), the cross is that basis to which we can point and say, "no, this is not the be all and end all, this is not what is significant" because our value, our righteousness and our worth is wrapped up in the person and the finished work of Jesus Christ.
just as God's confimation and affirmation of Jesus as His beloved child allowed Him to perform miracles (recall: Jesus' first miracle only started after God called Him His beloved Son), our identity, our utmost affirmation of God's love is wrapped up in the person of Jesus Christ. The Bible puts it this way: we know love through the fact that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us. the cross wraps up our undeserved identity, our identity as King and High Priest, child of God. Compared to a servant, a prince or princess walks with a different air of authority and confidence, simply because of who their father is, knowing the power they have through Him.
as we can. :)
Monday, 19 November 2007
Sunday, 11 November 2007
falling down and standing up.
people often say that its ok if you fall, you just have to get back up again.
but its easier said than done.
for the average person, standing back up may not be where they want to be. sure, no one likes to fall down, but standing back up on your own two feet ain't easy. i would know. you struggle to stand up, only to feel tossed about by everything and find yourself on your behind again. everyone's been there.
but here's the crux. that was before. for a child of God, even when you fall, you fall into the all-protected, cushion-y zone of grace. and the difference is that you can stand up, because you stand with the approval of God. you have the RIGHT to stand, to not stand is to not claim something that's rightfully yours. and you have the courage to stand, because you know you won't be tossed about, your future is NOT unsure. it is definite, definitely good. you win, not because you fought harder but simply because in Christ, you're a winner. its only right that you win. because God has the last say in yoour life.
but its easier said than done.
for the average person, standing back up may not be where they want to be. sure, no one likes to fall down, but standing back up on your own two feet ain't easy. i would know. you struggle to stand up, only to feel tossed about by everything and find yourself on your behind again. everyone's been there.
but here's the crux. that was before. for a child of God, even when you fall, you fall into the all-protected, cushion-y zone of grace. and the difference is that you can stand up, because you stand with the approval of God. you have the RIGHT to stand, to not stand is to not claim something that's rightfully yours. and you have the courage to stand, because you know you won't be tossed about, your future is NOT unsure. it is definite, definitely good. you win, not because you fought harder but simply because in Christ, you're a winner. its only right that you win. because God has the last say in yoour life.
Tuesday, 6 November 2007
for my convenience
current ear worm. it won't get out of my head, in a good way though.
卒業 ～さよならは明日のために～
sotsugyou ~sayonara wa ashita no tame ni~ // graduation ~for tomorrow we say goodbye~
タッキー＆翼 // TACKEY & TSUBASA
2wenty2wo; TRACK 015
もしも一つだけ たった一つだけ
かなえられるなら なにを祈るかな？
moshimo hitotsu dake tatta hitotsu dake
kanae rareru nara nani o inoru kana?
if I have one wish only one wish
that could come true what would I pray for?
いまどこにいるの？ いま誰といるの？
青い空見上げ そっと問いかける
ima doko ni iru no? ima dare to iru no?
aoi sora miage sotto toi kakeru
where are you now? who are you with?
looking up at the blue sky I ask in a whisper
With you すぐそばにいた頃の君はいない
With you 離れても変わらないと約束したのに
With you sugu soba ni ita koro no kimi wa inai
With you hanarete mo kawaranai to yakusoku shita no ni
with you you are no longer always by my side like before
with you even if we once promised to never change when we separated
たとえばぼくたちが想い出になる
そばのぬくもりにわ もうかなわないから
せつないためいきが 不意にこぼれた
舞い上がれ遥か遠く君に届くように
tatoeba bokutachi ga omoi de inai
soba no nukumori ni wa mou kanawanai kara
setsunai tameiki ga fui ni koboreta
mai agare haruka tooku kimi ni todoku you ni
if everything between us shall become a memory
it’s only because the warmth around us now is irresistable [1]
a sudden sound, a helpless sigh
it flies and drifts towards you in the distance
きっとその未来 ぼくはもういない
それだけのことに やっと気づいたよ
kitto sono mirai boku wa mou inai
soredake no koto ni yatto kizuita yo
a future with you surely no longer belongs to me
it’s such a simple thing but I’ve only just realized
For me 迷ってたぼくの背を押してくれた
For me 微笑みに隠していた悲しがる瞳
for me mayotte ta boku no se o oshite kureta
for me hohoemi ni kakushite ita kanashigaru hitomi
for me you’ve once brought me determination when I was lost
for me hiding under the smile is a pair of wistful eyes [2]
たとえばぼくたちがさよならになる
そばにいてほしいと、そうつぶやいていた
やるせない想いが声にならない
せめてこの祈りだけは君に届くように
tatoeba bokutachi ga sayonara ni naru
soba ni ite hoshii to sou tsubuyaite ita
yarusenai omoi ga koe ni naranai
semete kono inori dake wa kimi ni todoku you ni
if we must say goodbye from now on
I mutter to myself, I wish you were by my side
this persistent feeling of longing cannot be expressed in words
I wish that this prayer of mine will at least reach your ears
終われない想い 空に放して
たとえ一人でも 歩いていくから
owarenai omoi sora ni hanashite
tatoe hitori demo aruite iku kara
let this neverending longing be dispersed into the sky
even if I am the only one left I have to walk on
桜の花が舞う あの日のように
まぶしい想い出のヒカリを反射して
せつないためいきて 色鮮やかに
舞い上がれこの想いのすべて 届けてくれ
sakura no hana ga mau ano hi no you ni
mabushii omoi de no HIKARI o utsushite
setsunai tameiki de iro azayaka ni
mai agare kono omoi no subete todokete kure
the cherry blossoms dance in the sky, just like that day
the dazzling memories in the light
helplessly sighing, let them become more colorful
let all of these thoughts fly, and hope that they reach your side [3]
たてえばぼくたちが想い出になる
そばのぬくもりには もうかなわないから
さよならは未来のためにあるから
舞い上がれ遙か遠く君に届くように
tatoeba bokutachi ga omoi de ni naru
soba no nukumori ni wa mou kanawanai kara
sayonara wa mirai no tame ni aru kara
mai agare haruka tooku kimi ni todoku you ni
if everything between us shall become a memory
it’s only because the warmth around us now is irresistable
for that very distant future we say goodbye
it flies and drifts towards you in the distance
[1] the sentiment behind this line is that the warmth of the people around the singer now is a much stronger force than feelings for the person who is far away.
[2] this line is just random.
[3] it really means i’ll let all my memories and thoughts fly and i’ll just hope that they reach your side, but it’s kind of weird in the subject. so. just worded weirdly
卒業 ～さよならは明日のために～
sotsugyou ~sayonara wa ashita no tame ni~ // graduation ~for tomorrow we say goodbye~
タッキー＆翼 // TACKEY & TSUBASA
2wenty2wo; TRACK 015
もしも一つだけ たった一つだけ
かなえられるなら なにを祈るかな？
moshimo hitotsu dake tatta hitotsu dake
kanae rareru nara nani o inoru kana?
if I have one wish only one wish
that could come true what would I pray for?
いまどこにいるの？ いま誰といるの？
青い空見上げ そっと問いかける
ima doko ni iru no? ima dare to iru no?
aoi sora miage sotto toi kakeru
where are you now? who are you with?
looking up at the blue sky I ask in a whisper
With you すぐそばにいた頃の君はいない
With you 離れても変わらないと約束したのに
With you sugu soba ni ita koro no kimi wa inai
With you hanarete mo kawaranai to yakusoku shita no ni
with you you are no longer always by my side like before
with you even if we once promised to never change when we separated
たとえばぼくたちが想い出になる
そばのぬくもりにわ もうかなわないから
せつないためいきが 不意にこぼれた
舞い上がれ遥か遠く君に届くように
tatoeba bokutachi ga omoi de inai
soba no nukumori ni wa mou kanawanai kara
setsunai tameiki ga fui ni koboreta
mai agare haruka tooku kimi ni todoku you ni
if everything between us shall become a memory
it’s only because the warmth around us now is irresistable [1]
a sudden sound, a helpless sigh
it flies and drifts towards you in the distance
きっとその未来 ぼくはもういない
それだけのことに やっと気づいたよ
kitto sono mirai boku wa mou inai
soredake no koto ni yatto kizuita yo
a future with you surely no longer belongs to me
it’s such a simple thing but I’ve only just realized
For me 迷ってたぼくの背を押してくれた
For me 微笑みに隠していた悲しがる瞳
for me mayotte ta boku no se o oshite kureta
for me hohoemi ni kakushite ita kanashigaru hitomi
for me you’ve once brought me determination when I was lost
for me hiding under the smile is a pair of wistful eyes [2]
たとえばぼくたちがさよならになる
そばにいてほしいと、そうつぶやいていた
やるせない想いが声にならない
せめてこの祈りだけは君に届くように
tatoeba bokutachi ga sayonara ni naru
soba ni ite hoshii to sou tsubuyaite ita
yarusenai omoi ga koe ni naranai
semete kono inori dake wa kimi ni todoku you ni
if we must say goodbye from now on
I mutter to myself, I wish you were by my side
this persistent feeling of longing cannot be expressed in words
I wish that this prayer of mine will at least reach your ears
終われない想い 空に放して
たとえ一人でも 歩いていくから
owarenai omoi sora ni hanashite
tatoe hitori demo aruite iku kara
let this neverending longing be dispersed into the sky
even if I am the only one left I have to walk on
桜の花が舞う あの日のように
まぶしい想い出のヒカリを反射して
せつないためいきて 色鮮やかに
舞い上がれこの想いのすべて 届けてくれ
sakura no hana ga mau ano hi no you ni
mabushii omoi de no HIKARI o utsushite
setsunai tameiki de iro azayaka ni
mai agare kono omoi no subete todokete kure
the cherry blossoms dance in the sky, just like that day
the dazzling memories in the light
helplessly sighing, let them become more colorful
let all of these thoughts fly, and hope that they reach your side [3]
たてえばぼくたちが想い出になる
そばのぬくもりには もうかなわないから
さよならは未来のためにあるから
舞い上がれ遙か遠く君に届くように
tatoeba bokutachi ga omoi de ni naru
soba no nukumori ni wa mou kanawanai kara
sayonara wa mirai no tame ni aru kara
mai agare haruka tooku kimi ni todoku you ni
if everything between us shall become a memory
it’s only because the warmth around us now is irresistable
for that very distant future we say goodbye
it flies and drifts towards you in the distance
[1] the sentiment behind this line is that the warmth of the people around the singer now is a much stronger force than feelings for the person who is far away.
[2] this line is just random.
[3] it really means i’ll let all my memories and thoughts fly and i’ll just hope that they reach your side, but it’s kind of weird in the subject. so. just worded weirdly
healthy lifestyle (check this out dave!)
from coach maddy's blog, hilarious and apparently from one of the pastors.
Q: I've heard that cardiovascular exercise can prolong life; is this true?
A: Your heart is only good for so many beats, and that's it... don't waste them on exercise. Everything wears out eventually. Speeding up your heart will not make you live longer; that's like saying you can extend the life of your car by driving it faster. Want to live longer? Take a nap.
Q: Should I cut down on meat and eat more fruits and vegetables?
A: You must grasp logistical efficiencies. What does a cow eat? Hay and corn. And what are these? Vegetables. So a steak is nothing more than an efficient mechanism of delivering vegetables to your system. Need grain? Eat chicken. Beef is also a good source of field grass (green leafy vegetable). And a pork chop can give you 100% of your recommended daily allowance of vegetable products.
Q: Should I reduce my alcohol intake?
A: No, not at all. Wine is made from fruit. Brandy is distilled wine, that means they take the water out of the fruity bit so you get even more of the goodness that way. Beer is also made out of grain. Bottoms up!
Q: How can I calculate my body/fat ratio?
A: Well, if you have a body and you have fat, your ratio is one to one. If you have two bodies, your ratio is two to one, etc.
Q: What are some of the advantages of participating in a regular exercise program?
A: Can't think of a single one, sorry. My philosophy is: No Pain...Good!
Q: Aren't fried foods bad for you?
A: YOU'RE NOT LISTENING!!! .... Foods are fried these days in vegetable oil. In fact, they're permeated in it. How could getting more vegetables be bad for you?
Q: Will sit-ups help prevent me from getting a little soft around the middle?
A: Definitely not! When you exercise a muscle, it gets bigger. You should only be doing sit-ups if you want a bigger stomach.
Q: Is chocolate bad for me?
A: Are you crazy? HELLO Cocoa beans! Another vegetable!!! It's the best feel-good food around!
Q: Is swimming good for your figure?
A If swimming is good for your figure, explain whales to me.
Q: Is getting in-shape important for my lifestyle?
A: Hey! 'Round' is a shape!
Well, I hope this has cleared up any misconceptions you may have had about food and diets.
Final Word
And remember: For those of you who watch what you eat, here's the final word on nutrition and health. It's a relief to know the truth after all those conflicting nutritional studies.
1. The Japanese eat very little fat and suffer fewer heart attacks than Americans.
2. The Mexicans eat a lot of fat and suffer fewer heart attacks than Americans.
3. The Chinese drink very little red wine and suffer fewer heart attacks than Americans.
4. The Italians drink a lot of red wine and suffer fewer heart atacks than Americans.
5. The Germans drink a lot of beers and eat lots of sausages and fats and suffer fewer heart attacks than Americans.
CONCLUSION
Eat and drink what you like. Speaking English is apparently what kills you.
Q: I've heard that cardiovascular exercise can prolong life; is this true?
A: Your heart is only good for so many beats, and that's it... don't waste them on exercise. Everything wears out eventually. Speeding up your heart will not make you live longer; that's like saying you can extend the life of your car by driving it faster. Want to live longer? Take a nap.
Q: Should I cut down on meat and eat more fruits and vegetables?
A: You must grasp logistical efficiencies. What does a cow eat? Hay and corn. And what are these? Vegetables. So a steak is nothing more than an efficient mechanism of delivering vegetables to your system. Need grain? Eat chicken. Beef is also a good source of field grass (green leafy vegetable). And a pork chop can give you 100% of your recommended daily allowance of vegetable products.
Q: Should I reduce my alcohol intake?
A: No, not at all. Wine is made from fruit. Brandy is distilled wine, that means they take the water out of the fruity bit so you get even more of the goodness that way. Beer is also made out of grain. Bottoms up!
Q: How can I calculate my body/fat ratio?
A: Well, if you have a body and you have fat, your ratio is one to one. If you have two bodies, your ratio is two to one, etc.
Q: What are some of the advantages of participating in a regular exercise program?
A: Can't think of a single one, sorry. My philosophy is: No Pain...Good!
Q: Aren't fried foods bad for you?
A: YOU'RE NOT LISTENING!!! .... Foods are fried these days in vegetable oil. In fact, they're permeated in it. How could getting more vegetables be bad for you?
Q: Will sit-ups help prevent me from getting a little soft around the middle?
A: Definitely not! When you exercise a muscle, it gets bigger. You should only be doing sit-ups if you want a bigger stomach.
Q: Is chocolate bad for me?
A: Are you crazy? HELLO Cocoa beans! Another vegetable!!! It's the best feel-good food around!
Q: Is swimming good for your figure?
A If swimming is good for your figure, explain whales to me.
Q: Is getting in-shape important for my lifestyle?
A: Hey! 'Round' is a shape!
Well, I hope this has cleared up any misconceptions you may have had about food and diets.
Final Word
And remember: For those of you who watch what you eat, here's the final word on nutrition and health. It's a relief to know the truth after all those conflicting nutritional studies.
1. The Japanese eat very little fat and suffer fewer heart attacks than Americans.
2. The Mexicans eat a lot of fat and suffer fewer heart attacks than Americans.
3. The Chinese drink very little red wine and suffer fewer heart attacks than Americans.
4. The Italians drink a lot of red wine and suffer fewer heart atacks than Americans.
5. The Germans drink a lot of beers and eat lots of sausages and fats and suffer fewer heart attacks than Americans.
CONCLUSION
Eat and drink what you like. Speaking English is apparently what kills you.
Tuesday, 23 October 2007
The scars of yesterday can be your stars tomorrow :)
isn't the line of the title cool? pastor prince mentioned it in passing two days ago. and praise Jesus, cos it's such a line which restores hope into the hearts of the ones who hear it. that your scars will be scars no longer, that upon contact with the resurrection life of Jesus, they turn into stars, gloriously shining for the world to see.
Pastor's message on sunday was on the blessing of Abraham, and how the Holy Spirit had lingered and lingered, unwilling and sad to leave Israel, and how it had returned after the resurrection of Jesus Christ, eagerly and mightily filling the disciples in the room.
personally, i think that changed my view of the Holy Spirit a great deal.
my brother mentioned to me once, to not underestimate the Holy Spirit. The presence of God is not something feeble that suffers from "interruptions" in your quiet time with the Lord. Sure, we can all pray that whatever time that we choose to spend with the Lord will be guarded by God and that no interruptions will spring up, but hey, even if anything comes by, so what? the touch of God's presence isn't something feeble to be broken off, by let's say, your parent looking in and asking you to clean up your room.
and the message preached by pastor really reinforced that. the lack of so-called "feeling" the Holy Spirit does not, by any means diminish its presence, for the Holy Spirit is a helper of Jesus who NEVER LEAVES NOR FORSAKES you.
and Daddy God is eager, eager and willing to come to you to sozo (save) you out of your distresses. and its time that we all grab hold of that and call on Jesus with the heart and mind that is assured that He answers immediately and to an extent where it far exceeds our needs.
its like pastor said before, "a crying child belongs on the lap of the Father". and when we're lost, in pain and don't know what or how to pray, all we have to do is cry out to Abba and He knows and is there to carry us.
Pastor's message on sunday was on the blessing of Abraham, and how the Holy Spirit had lingered and lingered, unwilling and sad to leave Israel, and how it had returned after the resurrection of Jesus Christ, eagerly and mightily filling the disciples in the room.
personally, i think that changed my view of the Holy Spirit a great deal.
my brother mentioned to me once, to not underestimate the Holy Spirit. The presence of God is not something feeble that suffers from "interruptions" in your quiet time with the Lord. Sure, we can all pray that whatever time that we choose to spend with the Lord will be guarded by God and that no interruptions will spring up, but hey, even if anything comes by, so what? the touch of God's presence isn't something feeble to be broken off, by let's say, your parent looking in and asking you to clean up your room.
and the message preached by pastor really reinforced that. the lack of so-called "feeling" the Holy Spirit does not, by any means diminish its presence, for the Holy Spirit is a helper of Jesus who NEVER LEAVES NOR FORSAKES you.
and Daddy God is eager, eager and willing to come to you to sozo (save) you out of your distresses. and its time that we all grab hold of that and call on Jesus with the heart and mind that is assured that He answers immediately and to an extent where it far exceeds our needs.
its like pastor said before, "a crying child belongs on the lap of the Father". and when we're lost, in pain and don't know what or how to pray, all we have to do is cry out to Abba and He knows and is there to carry us.
Tuesday, 9 October 2007
birthdays and fights
haha my birthday was just over, and i thank God for all you lovely people really, it was a blast.
it was the first time i celebrated my birthday with my jc class, and it was really a surprise, didn't expect it at all :)
the caregroup's one was quite funny though. they managed to hide it till i went with the newcomer, Hui yi to the loo after dinner on saturday, and she asked "John was asking if we should spread the word about her birthday, who do you think they're talking about?" i just couldn't stop laughing when i saw her face as i said "uh, i think its me..."
and not forgetting my precious "brothers" whom i have known since i was about 14/15 years old. the sight of the silly "Buttercup" cake really made me smile :) haha, and of course, Pearlyn and her big fat cookie too :) thanks loves!
haha my street cred on fighters' club reached a full 5/5 today when i won the fight against joel with all the support. but i dropped to 4.59 in a silly fight (we lost 25 v 1) yeah, the guy alone won... and it dropped again to 3.75. but at least how it ended was seriously funny. haha :)
it was the first time i celebrated my birthday with my jc class, and it was really a surprise, didn't expect it at all :)
the caregroup's one was quite funny though. they managed to hide it till i went with the newcomer, Hui yi to the loo after dinner on saturday, and she asked "John was asking if we should spread the word about her birthday, who do you think they're talking about?" i just couldn't stop laughing when i saw her face as i said "uh, i think its me..."
and not forgetting my precious "brothers" whom i have known since i was about 14/15 years old. the sight of the silly "Buttercup" cake really made me smile :) haha, and of course, Pearlyn and her big fat cookie too :) thanks loves!
haha my street cred on fighters' club reached a full 5/5 today when i won the fight against joel with all the support. but i dropped to 4.59 in a silly fight (we lost 25 v 1) yeah, the guy alone won... and it dropped again to 3.75. but at least how it ended was seriously funny. haha :)
Tuesday, 2 October 2007
what's rightfully ours
i had a passing thought today. it goes like this:
as people, we often "fight" for what we believe to be rightfully ours. like no you can't take it, cause it belongs to me. i should have this or that because its my right as a human being.
but what about our 'right' as a child of God?
if we really felt that it was our right to be blessed, to live a glorious life that speaks of the favour and glory and blessedness of Jesus Christ, there would be no misperception of something that is detrimental to us, being a 'lesson' or merely an accept part of our lives would there?
well, to speak the truth, it is our right as children of God to be blessed, loved and to reign in life! because if its not, the death of Jesus Christ upon the cross would have been in vain!
your blessedness, well-being and peace of mind in every area of your life is your blood-bought right today. don't ever let anything or anyone convince you otherwise.
sure, we were once sinners, but having received the finished work and the blood of Jesus that keeps on keeping us righteous and holy, its heresy not to receive what God has said is your inheritance as a child for whom someone has died to leave for you, and resurrected to proclaim its eternal completion.
its your right! :) receive it.
as people, we often "fight" for what we believe to be rightfully ours. like no you can't take it, cause it belongs to me. i should have this or that because its my right as a human being.
but what about our 'right' as a child of God?
if we really felt that it was our right to be blessed, to live a glorious life that speaks of the favour and glory and blessedness of Jesus Christ, there would be no misperception of something that is detrimental to us, being a 'lesson' or merely an accept part of our lives would there?
well, to speak the truth, it is our right as children of God to be blessed, loved and to reign in life! because if its not, the death of Jesus Christ upon the cross would have been in vain!
your blessedness, well-being and peace of mind in every area of your life is your blood-bought right today. don't ever let anything or anyone convince you otherwise.
sure, we were once sinners, but having received the finished work and the blood of Jesus that keeps on keeping us righteous and holy, its heresy not to receive what God has said is your inheritance as a child for whom someone has died to leave for you, and resurrected to proclaim its eternal completion.
its your right! :) receive it.
Wednesday, 19 September 2007
Locklear, Locklear. sigh. i feel like Tylendel died all over again. sigh.
i hate it when the one of the good characters fall into an evil ploy and die because of it. especially when its characters that i really enjoy.
but that just proves that raymond e feist and mercedes lackey are good authors. i remember when tylendel died i was depressed for a week. and when vanyel died as well, it extended to 2 and a half weeks. sigh. RAHHHHR.
-points to characters- "Locklear, Tylendel and Vanyel, COME FORTH."
sound familiar anyone? ;) oh yes and amen.
i hate it when the one of the good characters fall into an evil ploy and die because of it. especially when its characters that i really enjoy.
but that just proves that raymond e feist and mercedes lackey are good authors. i remember when tylendel died i was depressed for a week. and when vanyel died as well, it extended to 2 and a half weeks. sigh. RAHHHHR.
-points to characters- "Locklear, Tylendel and Vanyel, COME FORTH."
sound familiar anyone? ;) oh yes and amen.
Tuesday, 18 September 2007
Monday, 17 September 2007
mm its been awhile since i last updated. cheated on posting for a while, putting song upon song up, but well, haha too bad :P
so many times i seek for progression, a step forward to tell me that i've grown up, that i'm different from the way i was before. and its not limited to any one part of my life, but so so many. in Christ (ministry), in friendships, in mentality, in action. but often i find that when i prize something else above the one thing most needful, Jesus, i tend to lose it. not that it's anyone's fault, but that i place so much importance on that thing so consciously, that i gloss over everything and everyone else. then i realise what i missed out on, feelings that i hadn't deliberately but nonetheless, had hurt, including my own. and then i realise, it wasn't worth it.
so i decided. that this life be really lived for Christ and for me. not for anything else, nor to hope to achieve some lost dream. i'm not talking about ministry calling, or dreams God has placed in our hearts but small castles that as people, we tend to build in the air in hope that they come true. i wanna really just enjoy each moment and every person who crosses paths with me. seems unrealistic almost, but i'm not going crazy and seeking the impossible, i'm just starting to love this life a little more, and realise how much Jesus loves me that much more. i'm not saying that i'm going to make everything into "quality" for every second of my life but rather, that i'm not going to chase after anything other than Jesus. i can't be bothered and i just feel that, hey, Jesus said i'm cool with Him, and no one else is on my "need for approval" list, so i don't have to prove anything.
no, i don't want to despise the day of small beginnings, because its what You have put in my hands. i don't want to neglect the goings of today just because i'm too busy looking at tomorrow or the day after. i wanna walk this life, being conscious not ONLY that You hold the finishing line and have already marked my finishing point to be good, but also that while i'm walking down the roads of "everyday" that You're holding my hand through it all.
so many times i seek for progression, a step forward to tell me that i've grown up, that i'm different from the way i was before. and its not limited to any one part of my life, but so so many. in Christ (ministry), in friendships, in mentality, in action. but often i find that when i prize something else above the one thing most needful, Jesus, i tend to lose it. not that it's anyone's fault, but that i place so much importance on that thing so consciously, that i gloss over everything and everyone else. then i realise what i missed out on, feelings that i hadn't deliberately but nonetheless, had hurt, including my own. and then i realise, it wasn't worth it.
so i decided. that this life be really lived for Christ and for me. not for anything else, nor to hope to achieve some lost dream. i'm not talking about ministry calling, or dreams God has placed in our hearts but small castles that as people, we tend to build in the air in hope that they come true. i wanna really just enjoy each moment and every person who crosses paths with me. seems unrealistic almost, but i'm not going crazy and seeking the impossible, i'm just starting to love this life a little more, and realise how much Jesus loves me that much more. i'm not saying that i'm going to make everything into "quality" for every second of my life but rather, that i'm not going to chase after anything other than Jesus. i can't be bothered and i just feel that, hey, Jesus said i'm cool with Him, and no one else is on my "need for approval" list, so i don't have to prove anything.
no, i don't want to despise the day of small beginnings, because its what You have put in my hands. i don't want to neglect the goings of today just because i'm too busy looking at tomorrow or the day after. i wanna walk this life, being conscious not ONLY that You hold the finishing line and have already marked my finishing point to be good, but also that while i'm walking down the roads of "everyday" that You're holding my hand through it all.
Friday, 31 August 2007
You get me
So I'm a little left of center
I'm a little out of tune
Some say I'm paranormal
So I just bend their spoon
Who wants to be ordinary
In a crazy, mixed-up world
I don't care what they're sayin'
As long as I'm your girl
Hey, you are on my side
And they, they just roll their eyes
You get me
When nobody understands
You come and take the chance, baby
You get me
You look inside my wild mind
Never knowing what you'll find
And still you want me all the time
Yeah, you do
Yeah, you get me
So what if I see the sunshine
In the pouring rain
Some people think I'm crazy
But you say it's okay
You've seen my secret garden
Where all of my flowers grow
In my imagination
Anything goes
I, I am all you want
They, they just read me wrong
You get me
When nobody understands
You come and hold my hand, baby
You get me
You look inside my wild mind
Never knowing what you'll find
Still you want me all the time
Yeah, you do
'Cause you get me
Hey, you are on my side
They, they just roll their eyes
Yeah, yeah, yeah
'Cause you get me
When nobody understands
You come and take the chance, baby
You get me
When none of the pieces fit
You make sense of it
You get me
You look inside my wild mind
Never knowing what you'll find
And still I want you all the time
Yeah, I do
'Cause you get me
I'm a little out of tune
Some say I'm paranormal
So I just bend their spoon
Who wants to be ordinary
In a crazy, mixed-up world
I don't care what they're sayin'
As long as I'm your girl
Hey, you are on my side
And they, they just roll their eyes
You get me
When nobody understands
You come and take the chance, baby
You get me
You look inside my wild mind
Never knowing what you'll find
And still you want me all the time
Yeah, you do
Yeah, you get me
So what if I see the sunshine
In the pouring rain
Some people think I'm crazy
But you say it's okay
You've seen my secret garden
Where all of my flowers grow
In my imagination
Anything goes
I, I am all you want
They, they just read me wrong
You get me
When nobody understands
You come and hold my hand, baby
You get me
You look inside my wild mind
Never knowing what you'll find
Still you want me all the time
Yeah, you do
'Cause you get me
Hey, you are on my side
They, they just roll their eyes
Yeah, yeah, yeah
'Cause you get me
When nobody understands
You come and take the chance, baby
You get me
When none of the pieces fit
You make sense of it
You get me
You look inside my wild mind
Never knowing what you'll find
And still I want you all the time
Yeah, I do
'Cause you get me
Friday, 24 August 2007
my only hope
ONLY HOPE
There's a song that's inside of my soul
It's the one that I've tried to write over and over again
I'm awake in the infinite cold
But You sing to me over and over and over again
So I lay my head back down
And I lift my hands
and pray to be only Yours
I pray to be only Yours
I know now You're my only hope
Sing to me the song of the stars
Of Your galaxy dancing and laughing
and laughing again
When it feels like my dreams are so far
Sing to me of the plans that You have for me over again
So I lay my head back down
And I lift my hands and pray
To be only Yours
I pray to be only Yours
I know now You're my only hope
I give You my destiny
I'm giving You all of me
I want Your symphony
Singing in all that I am
At the top of my lungs I'm giving it back
So I lay my head back down
And I lift my hands and pray
To be only Yours
I pray to be only Yours
I pray to be only Yours
I know now You're my only hope
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i found a nice song. mm. who would have thought mandy moore sings christian songs? its actually the nicest song (at least i feel) she's ever done.
but at least she's right about something. that He's really our only hope. everything else is fallible or breakable, temporial and unreliable.
chase after He who is absolute, who is Life and Truth itself, and everything else will chase after you.
"For your Heavenly Father knows you have need of all these things. But seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will be added to you."
sure, you can tell yourself, "no, i won't pay attention to all these temporial things," but can you really sway yourself? the only way you can actually do it is to be "distracted" FULLY by the love of Christ. such that when you fall so totally in love with Him that you have no attention span for anything else - NOT to say that you neglect your responsibilites, for the Christ in you will EMPOWER you to fulfill them - but that your heart's desire is most acutely set on the love and the person of Jesus Christ.
Because everything else can strive for perfection, can attempt to attain it, but even the sweetest person can get angry at times, even the most beautiful thing you can imagine may be unappreciated by someone else. humans are fallible, objects are breakable. nothing, apart from the person of Jesus Christ and His finished work lasts forever.
i guess i can say all this because i know for a fact how fallible people are, how everything else doesn't last. no, i'm not being emo, i'm just stating it as a fact. sure, i can get upset still at times, but i'm fallible as well. but my security, the absolutes in my life aren't constuctions or perceptions of truth construed by man but a person, that of Jesus Christ. sure, theories are nice, but guess what, that's all they are: theories.
whether or not we want to be disappointed, is your choice. sure, try as you might to attribute your disappointment to something "outside" of your control, ultimately it ties back to whether YOU are willing to sink into such an abyss of peace and love that hey, the world may sway but you won't.
just how much are you willing to allow yourself to fall in love with Him?
you might lose control, you might lose yourself, might lose your grip on His hand but more importantly, do you know that all the while, He's the one holding onto you?
There's a song that's inside of my soul
It's the one that I've tried to write over and over again
I'm awake in the infinite cold
But You sing to me over and over and over again
So I lay my head back down
And I lift my hands
and pray to be only Yours
I pray to be only Yours
I know now You're my only hope
Sing to me the song of the stars
Of Your galaxy dancing and laughing
and laughing again
When it feels like my dreams are so far
Sing to me of the plans that You have for me over again
So I lay my head back down
And I lift my hands and pray
To be only Yours
I pray to be only Yours
I know now You're my only hope
I give You my destiny
I'm giving You all of me
I want Your symphony
Singing in all that I am
At the top of my lungs I'm giving it back
So I lay my head back down
And I lift my hands and pray
To be only Yours
I pray to be only Yours
I pray to be only Yours
I know now You're my only hope
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i found a nice song. mm. who would have thought mandy moore sings christian songs? its actually the nicest song (at least i feel) she's ever done.
but at least she's right about something. that He's really our only hope. everything else is fallible or breakable, temporial and unreliable.
chase after He who is absolute, who is Life and Truth itself, and everything else will chase after you.
"For your Heavenly Father knows you have need of all these things. But seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will be added to you."
sure, you can tell yourself, "no, i won't pay attention to all these temporial things," but can you really sway yourself? the only way you can actually do it is to be "distracted" FULLY by the love of Christ. such that when you fall so totally in love with Him that you have no attention span for anything else - NOT to say that you neglect your responsibilites, for the Christ in you will EMPOWER you to fulfill them - but that your heart's desire is most acutely set on the love and the person of Jesus Christ.
Because everything else can strive for perfection, can attempt to attain it, but even the sweetest person can get angry at times, even the most beautiful thing you can imagine may be unappreciated by someone else. humans are fallible, objects are breakable. nothing, apart from the person of Jesus Christ and His finished work lasts forever.
i guess i can say all this because i know for a fact how fallible people are, how everything else doesn't last. no, i'm not being emo, i'm just stating it as a fact. sure, i can get upset still at times, but i'm fallible as well. but my security, the absolutes in my life aren't constuctions or perceptions of truth construed by man but a person, that of Jesus Christ. sure, theories are nice, but guess what, that's all they are: theories.
whether or not we want to be disappointed, is your choice. sure, try as you might to attribute your disappointment to something "outside" of your control, ultimately it ties back to whether YOU are willing to sink into such an abyss of peace and love that hey, the world may sway but you won't.
just how much are you willing to allow yourself to fall in love with Him?
you might lose control, you might lose yourself, might lose your grip on His hand but more importantly, do you know that all the while, He's the one holding onto you?
Monday, 20 August 2007
smiling, the child
dances between the puddles,
laughs as the rain pours down,
pretending that its lemon drops falling,
attempting to catch with her mouth open,
as the old candy drops song had suggested.
sure, to reminisce does not equate to re-living it all. but it comes pretty close.
i miss the days when you were five and the world was simpler,
a time when i could run over and be sure that you'd meet me there.
dances between the puddles,
laughs as the rain pours down,
pretending that its lemon drops falling,
attempting to catch with her mouth open,
as the old candy drops song had suggested.
sure, to reminisce does not equate to re-living it all. but it comes pretty close.
i miss the days when you were five and the world was simpler,
a time when i could run over and be sure that you'd meet me there.
Sunday, 19 August 2007
rest
sometimes i just like to immerse myself in songs like this piano one thats playing right now on my blog. sure, its highly sentimental in the way it flows, but too bad if you dont like it, cause i happen to enjoy it. i wouldn't go as far as to say it makes me happy - hardly, considering how "emo" it is - but i like the way , at least for me, it sort of brings me to another time and another place, and makes me remember things and thoughts which are precious to me, and what is important to me in my life; which i happen to forget, all too often.
i could go on and on about this, but i'd really rather just sit back and enjoy.
i wish that i had the time to do the same in life, time where a person could just kick back and enjoy what's been placed on this earth by God for us to enjoy. but everything nowadays is rushrushrush, queuequeuequeue, that hardly anything's "fun" anymore. ok shall stop whining, think i just needed to get that out of my system.
i need rest. and yeah, as pastor said, the only thing God ever said that we should fear is that we not enter into His rest.
i remember my brother once told me, that if you asked yourself, "do i feel tired?" or have the compulsion to simply rest, you can be assured that you haven't been resting. its like a light kinda dawned upon me, like, oh yeah, that's true. all too often we labour and labour, getting caught up in the twists and turns of our daily lives that we sub-consciously place Jesus and His finished work aside, with a post-it note that says : erm, i'll get back to this later. sounds familiar? yeah it does to me too, so join the club or we can have an altar-call for liars ;)
i could go on and on about this, but i'd really rather just sit back and enjoy.
i wish that i had the time to do the same in life, time where a person could just kick back and enjoy what's been placed on this earth by God for us to enjoy. but everything nowadays is rushrushrush, queuequeuequeue, that hardly anything's "fun" anymore. ok shall stop whining, think i just needed to get that out of my system.
i need rest. and yeah, as pastor said, the only thing God ever said that we should fear is that we not enter into His rest.
i remember my brother once told me, that if you asked yourself, "do i feel tired?" or have the compulsion to simply rest, you can be assured that you haven't been resting. its like a light kinda dawned upon me, like, oh yeah, that's true. all too often we labour and labour, getting caught up in the twists and turns of our daily lives that we sub-consciously place Jesus and His finished work aside, with a post-it note that says : erm, i'll get back to this later. sounds familiar? yeah it does to me too, so join the club or we can have an altar-call for liars ;)
Sunday, 12 August 2007
the King that came to serve and love
:) arrow was a blast today!
pastor chin's message was cool and really, simple but powerful. like what the leader's have been saying for ages, that hey, to give to others you have to first receive, or you won't have anything to give anyways. and its so true.
cause when you're all empty inside, even the smiles that you give don't come from the heart, the slightest thing can get you upset and even words of encouragement that you give to those whom you care about seem hollow.
but like pastor said, i guess we all really have to come to the place where we realise that the one thing needful, that daily manna (bread) that we receive is important to start our day with the right mindset, the consciousness of how big and who our God is. that with the washing of our feet, the receiving of the service of the Servant King that is girded with righteousness and faithfulness, such that everywhere we walk in the walk of this life on earth is blessed ground, for the blessings of God are upon the person, not the land.
i never want to come to a place whereby i lose sight of all this, because i know the moment i take my eyes off Him, everything else in my life swings off-balance. its been tried and tested, and i really don't care to try that again.
"your inability to hear God does not overpower God's ability to speak to you."
sounds logical huh, because otherwise we would be saying that God's ability is lesser than ours wouldn't we?
now how come that never occurred to us earlier huh... >.<
thank God its not our part that matters, but His :)
pastor chin's message was cool and really, simple but powerful. like what the leader's have been saying for ages, that hey, to give to others you have to first receive, or you won't have anything to give anyways. and its so true.
cause when you're all empty inside, even the smiles that you give don't come from the heart, the slightest thing can get you upset and even words of encouragement that you give to those whom you care about seem hollow.
but like pastor said, i guess we all really have to come to the place where we realise that the one thing needful, that daily manna (bread) that we receive is important to start our day with the right mindset, the consciousness of how big and who our God is. that with the washing of our feet, the receiving of the service of the Servant King that is girded with righteousness and faithfulness, such that everywhere we walk in the walk of this life on earth is blessed ground, for the blessings of God are upon the person, not the land.
i never want to come to a place whereby i lose sight of all this, because i know the moment i take my eyes off Him, everything else in my life swings off-balance. its been tried and tested, and i really don't care to try that again.
"your inability to hear God does not overpower God's ability to speak to you."
sounds logical huh, because otherwise we would be saying that God's ability is lesser than ours wouldn't we?
now how come that never occurred to us earlier huh... >.<
thank God its not our part that matters, but His :)
Thursday, 9 August 2007
i think its really lovely.
the way the faces of newlywed couples seem to just glow, even when they look so cutely-silly, walking out of the mrt with cardboard boxes strapped to their backs from ikea.
or the look on the baby's face when his mom's playing peek-a-boo.
and the best part is, they don't even realise it. i guess that makes it all the more beautiful.
happy birthday singapore :)
the way the faces of newlywed couples seem to just glow, even when they look so cutely-silly, walking out of the mrt with cardboard boxes strapped to their backs from ikea.
or the look on the baby's face when his mom's playing peek-a-boo.
and the best part is, they don't even realise it. i guess that makes it all the more beautiful.
happy birthday singapore :)
Monday, 30 July 2007
One and the same
Jesus is the same yesterday, today and forever more.
for many Christians, its such a familiar line that its become some sort of a mantra, chant chant chant, yeah we know, next please. like it or not, many of us take it for granted.
but what does it exactly mean by Him being the same, yesterday today and forever more - as the Bible tells us?
lets go into a bit of that today.
the Bible clearly states that the heart of Jesus for us today is "for (our) good, and not of evil" and we know that God being God, He cant lie right? its time therefore to realise that unreal, impossible as it may sound, God is never ever angry with us, never hold anything against us and never imputes sin unto us.
but do we know the heart of love of God toward us? do you know that every believer has access to the heart of God and how he feels towards us today? that while we may not understand the mind of God, we have the mind of Christ - through the Holy Spirit that lives in us - and hold in us therefore, the feelings and purposes of His heart. [1 Corinthians 2:16]
its time for us to come to a realisation of the extent to which that heart of God is for us. "for by this we know love, that He dies on the cross for us" and that is the truest and most expressive action which shows the heart of God for us. the cross.
that same love that made Jesus willingly die on the cross is still there for us today. the same love that loved us in spite of our wretchedness "that while we were sinners Christ died for us". Jesus Christ is the same. His heart still burns with the same passion that led Him to lay up His life on our behalf. Even for those people whom we feel we love most - lets say the love of Christ that is placed there by Jesus living in us aside - we would hesitate, even for a fraction of second, on whether we would really want to die for them, in their place. But as for Jesus, the people that He died for had rejected Him, scorned Him, spit on Him, sneered at Him, jeered in His face, denounce Him as the Messiah, punched Him, whipped Him, persecuted Him, nailed Him, gambled away His clothes, TRIED to use the Law He Himself wrote to humiliate Him and basically were a bunch of unseeing, uncaring, rude, despicable and unappreciative bunch.
but He saw them through eyes that only saw love.
He saw that they were lost sheep, without a shepherd - no one to protect them, to look out for them, wandering aimlessly and fearfully, with no hope for the morrow.
and He loved them still, saying "forgive them Father, for they know not what they do"
that same heart of forgiveness and love extends to you today.
take hold, of it, cherish it and experience that love afresh today, and everyday.
and i pray you enjoy the sweetness of that manna of life.
for many Christians, its such a familiar line that its become some sort of a mantra, chant chant chant, yeah we know, next please. like it or not, many of us take it for granted.
but what does it exactly mean by Him being the same, yesterday today and forever more - as the Bible tells us?
lets go into a bit of that today.
the Bible clearly states that the heart of Jesus for us today is "for (our) good, and not of evil" and we know that God being God, He cant lie right? its time therefore to realise that unreal, impossible as it may sound, God is never ever angry with us, never hold anything against us and never imputes sin unto us.
but do we know the heart of love of God toward us? do you know that every believer has access to the heart of God and how he feels towards us today? that while we may not understand the mind of God, we have the mind of Christ - through the Holy Spirit that lives in us - and hold in us therefore, the feelings and purposes of His heart. [1 Corinthians 2:16]
its time for us to come to a realisation of the extent to which that heart of God is for us. "for by this we know love, that He dies on the cross for us" and that is the truest and most expressive action which shows the heart of God for us. the cross.
that same love that made Jesus willingly die on the cross is still there for us today. the same love that loved us in spite of our wretchedness "that while we were sinners Christ died for us". Jesus Christ is the same. His heart still burns with the same passion that led Him to lay up His life on our behalf. Even for those people whom we feel we love most - lets say the love of Christ that is placed there by Jesus living in us aside - we would hesitate, even for a fraction of second, on whether we would really want to die for them, in their place. But as for Jesus, the people that He died for had rejected Him, scorned Him, spit on Him, sneered at Him, jeered in His face, denounce Him as the Messiah, punched Him, whipped Him, persecuted Him, nailed Him, gambled away His clothes, TRIED to use the Law He Himself wrote to humiliate Him and basically were a bunch of unseeing, uncaring, rude, despicable and unappreciative bunch.
but He saw them through eyes that only saw love.
He saw that they were lost sheep, without a shepherd - no one to protect them, to look out for them, wandering aimlessly and fearfully, with no hope for the morrow.
and He loved them still, saying "forgive them Father, for they know not what they do"
that same heart of forgiveness and love extends to you today.
take hold, of it, cherish it and experience that love afresh today, and everyday.
and i pray you enjoy the sweetness of that manna of life.
Monday, 16 July 2007
delight yourself in the Lord
Jesus is amazing people and you better believe it.
one day before i had just blogged on the Word of the Lord being sharper than any two-edged sword, piercing even to the division of the soul and the Spirit, and its so so true. people who i think i know, or rather know about, the Spirit of God can open up to you even in an instant, and lead you to speak directly into their hearts, their secret fears that no one knows about.
its amazing what the gospel can do, and the love of God, that reaches out and touches the direct centre of your heart.
and while so often we forget our prayers - like how i even forgot about having prayed for someone to know God before - God still remembers, still is faithful and today itself, reminded me of His faithfulness.
thank you Daddy, really thank you.
I'm so happy that another one of Your precious children has heard the truth, the good news and felt Your love. and i'm just really excited for her, cause i know now that her life will never be the same again.
You're really the God of miracles. and i know, seeing all this, that people can say what they like, they can laugh, they can scoff at all this.
but i feel this so so strongly in my heart
" i will not be ashamed of the gospel of Christ, for it is the POWER of God unto SALVATION"
its time to hear the good news.
another thing to share, which though i've shared with some already, but hey, when it comes to the Word of God and His heart of love for us, i say the more the merrier.
Psalm 37:4
"Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart."
the other night i was online on msn, and joshua koh ( from the DARE youth ministry - the most happening youth ministry for sec school students from ages 13 to 17 - insert cheers here) , popped up a message and said, "kailin, what is is delight yourself in the Lord?"
so i asked Jesus, hey Jesus, open this up to me, cause you said that the Holy Spirit is here to guide me and teach me in the Word right? so open this up to me and guide me in turn, in opening this up to him Lord.
its amazing what a prayer can do, and how Jesus is always constantly listening and so ready to answer us.
i felt this inner prompting that just told me to focus on the word "delight". i thought, okay, just check it out, cause i'm sure Jesus definitely has a reason for saying that, duh right?
and its amazing, because people, delight doesnt just mean to enjoy or to pleasure in.
nope, its more than that.
its means to make the SOURCE of your pleasure.
and even now, i can feel Jesus just telling me to make Him the source of all our pleasure.
such that our eyes won't be swayed by our physical circumstances or what people say about us, but that our security, our happiness, our spiritual, mental, emotional and physical health are all wrapped up in the person of Jesus Christ.
like pastor says, we're thermostats, not thermometers.
Christians are made to live the life of the glory of Jesus Christ, and we set the temperature, we're not blown about or tossed by the winds.
As Christ is, so are we in this world.
thats what the Bible says.
is as in how He is now, in His resurrected glory, in His life and health and wholeness, riches and honour.
what is it that you need?
favour?
as Christ is favoured, so are you in this world!
health?
as Christ is whole and healthy, so are you in this world!
the Holy Spirit inspired this verse as a blank check. remember, as He is, so are you in this world!
there's an equation.
as Jesus IS at the Father's right hand now = how you are in THIS world.
take hold of this people, and reign as the Children of God that He means us to be.
one day before i had just blogged on the Word of the Lord being sharper than any two-edged sword, piercing even to the division of the soul and the Spirit, and its so so true. people who i think i know, or rather know about, the Spirit of God can open up to you even in an instant, and lead you to speak directly into their hearts, their secret fears that no one knows about.
its amazing what the gospel can do, and the love of God, that reaches out and touches the direct centre of your heart.
and while so often we forget our prayers - like how i even forgot about having prayed for someone to know God before - God still remembers, still is faithful and today itself, reminded me of His faithfulness.
thank you Daddy, really thank you.
I'm so happy that another one of Your precious children has heard the truth, the good news and felt Your love. and i'm just really excited for her, cause i know now that her life will never be the same again.
You're really the God of miracles. and i know, seeing all this, that people can say what they like, they can laugh, they can scoff at all this.
but i feel this so so strongly in my heart
" i will not be ashamed of the gospel of Christ, for it is the POWER of God unto SALVATION"
its time to hear the good news.
another thing to share, which though i've shared with some already, but hey, when it comes to the Word of God and His heart of love for us, i say the more the merrier.
Psalm 37:4
"Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart."
the other night i was online on msn, and joshua koh ( from the DARE youth ministry - the most happening youth ministry for sec school students from ages 13 to 17 - insert cheers here) , popped up a message and said, "kailin, what is is delight yourself in the Lord?"
so i asked Jesus, hey Jesus, open this up to me, cause you said that the Holy Spirit is here to guide me and teach me in the Word right? so open this up to me and guide me in turn, in opening this up to him Lord.
its amazing what a prayer can do, and how Jesus is always constantly listening and so ready to answer us.
i felt this inner prompting that just told me to focus on the word "delight". i thought, okay, just check it out, cause i'm sure Jesus definitely has a reason for saying that, duh right?
and its amazing, because people, delight doesnt just mean to enjoy or to pleasure in.
nope, its more than that.
its means to make the SOURCE of your pleasure.
and even now, i can feel Jesus just telling me to make Him the source of all our pleasure.
such that our eyes won't be swayed by our physical circumstances or what people say about us, but that our security, our happiness, our spiritual, mental, emotional and physical health are all wrapped up in the person of Jesus Christ.
like pastor says, we're thermostats, not thermometers.
Christians are made to live the life of the glory of Jesus Christ, and we set the temperature, we're not blown about or tossed by the winds.
As Christ is, so are we in this world.
thats what the Bible says.
is as in how He is now, in His resurrected glory, in His life and health and wholeness, riches and honour.
what is it that you need?
favour?
as Christ is favoured, so are you in this world!
health?
as Christ is whole and healthy, so are you in this world!
the Holy Spirit inspired this verse as a blank check. remember, as He is, so are you in this world!
there's an equation.
as Jesus IS at the Father's right hand now = how you are in THIS world.
take hold of this people, and reign as the Children of God that He means us to be.
Sunday, 15 July 2007
wow so many posts in 2 days! this must be some kind of record.
ok have pictures from grandpa's birthday and hanging out with my precious bunch of lovely people again, but i think i'll leave that till tmr, after the history test.
the bible says that the Spirit of God is sharper than any two-edged sword, piercing even to the division of the bone and the marrow, the spirit and the soul. and its amazing, cause that discernment, that amazingly sharp and understanding Spirit is within all of us. no, God didnt say only when you're in church, or only in ministry. He said He will never, ever, by any means leave or forsake you. that sharpness and discernment is always there, always present.
like Pastor Prince said today about what God said to Him.
Jesus has already identified with us and our sufferings, and through that gave us the gift of grace. Its time now, on our part as the children of God to identify with the life, the love, the glory and honour of Jesus Christ.
<3
ok have pictures from grandpa's birthday and hanging out with my precious bunch of lovely people again, but i think i'll leave that till tmr, after the history test.
the bible says that the Spirit of God is sharper than any two-edged sword, piercing even to the division of the bone and the marrow, the spirit and the soul. and its amazing, cause that discernment, that amazingly sharp and understanding Spirit is within all of us. no, God didnt say only when you're in church, or only in ministry. He said He will never, ever, by any means leave or forsake you. that sharpness and discernment is always there, always present.
like Pastor Prince said today about what God said to Him.
Jesus has already identified with us and our sufferings, and through that gave us the gift of grace. Its time now, on our part as the children of God to identify with the life, the love, the glory and honour of Jesus Christ.
<3
ok, so my blogging has been pretty lazy. mm well i guess i prefer sharing the good stuff in person to those precious people around me.
like that totally cool revelation i had this week. AMAZING, i tell you.
if you haven't heard it, ask and prepare to be blown away, ;)
i tell you that Jesus is way cool.
like that totally cool revelation i had this week. AMAZING, i tell you.
if you haven't heard it, ask and prepare to be blown away, ;)
i tell you that Jesus is way cool.
Hosanna - Hillsong
I see the King of glory
Coming down the clouds with fire
The whole earth shakes, the whole earth shakes
I see His love and mercy
Washing over all our sin
The people sing, the people sing
[Chorus]
Hosanna, Hosanna
Hosanna in the Highest
I see a generation
Rising up to take the place
With selfless faith, with selfless faith
I see a new revival
Staring as we pray and seek
We're on our knees, we're on our knees
[Bridge]
Heal my heart and make it clean
Open up my eyes to the things unseen
Show me how to love like You have loved me
Break my heart for what breaks Yours
Everything I am for Your kingdom's cause
As I walk from earth into eternity
Coming down the clouds with fire
The whole earth shakes, the whole earth shakes
I see His love and mercy
Washing over all our sin
The people sing, the people sing
[Chorus]
Hosanna, Hosanna
Hosanna in the Highest
I see a generation
Rising up to take the place
With selfless faith, with selfless faith
I see a new revival
Staring as we pray and seek
We're on our knees, we're on our knees
[Bridge]
Heal my heart and make it clean
Open up my eyes to the things unseen
Show me how to love like You have loved me
Break my heart for what breaks Yours
Everything I am for Your kingdom's cause
As I walk from earth into eternity
love the song hosanna by hillsong.
had a fantastic time at arrow today, with pastor chin sharing about flowing with the life of Christ and trusting God.
i remember him saying, don't worry about what people say about you, because you aren't the one who sustains the testimony of your life for God, but He will sustain it, cause if you're the one sustaining it then its no longer grace but works. so so true.
sharing was great too, with jo sharing her revelation of the heart of Daddy God FOR His children, all things good and never to harm. that He is FOR us and not against us, the protective, loving, gracious heart of a Father, our Father.
ruoyun's testimony about her "supernatural recovery" was so good too, and just how God is so faithful.
also charlene and her university entrance, amazing and surprised her, but surely supernaturally intervened. "the one thing that is needful" she did. :)
not to mention yang yan and that verse, "for God has not given us the spirit of fear, but of power, of love and of sound mind."; and how it kept her in the zone of peace despite all the returning of the MYE results.
yeukeed too, with his totally undeserving surprise of topping his class in gp. lol ;)
and myself too, i received so much this week its amazing.
for those of you who don't know, you better believe it, God is faithful.
had a fantastic time at arrow today, with pastor chin sharing about flowing with the life of Christ and trusting God.
i remember him saying, don't worry about what people say about you, because you aren't the one who sustains the testimony of your life for God, but He will sustain it, cause if you're the one sustaining it then its no longer grace but works. so so true.
sharing was great too, with jo sharing her revelation of the heart of Daddy God FOR His children, all things good and never to harm. that He is FOR us and not against us, the protective, loving, gracious heart of a Father, our Father.
ruoyun's testimony about her "supernatural recovery" was so good too, and just how God is so faithful.
also charlene and her university entrance, amazing and surprised her, but surely supernaturally intervened. "the one thing that is needful" she did. :)
not to mention yang yan and that verse, "for God has not given us the spirit of fear, but of power, of love and of sound mind."; and how it kept her in the zone of peace despite all the returning of the MYE results.
yeukeed too, with his totally undeserving surprise of topping his class in gp. lol ;)
and myself too, i received so much this week its amazing.
for those of you who don't know, you better believe it, God is faithful.
Monday, 9 July 2007
ok blogging is therapy right now. to remind remind remind me to chill because Jesus really does love me.
am annoyed with my dad. we had a great talk in the absence of my step-mother the other day but then i just got really annoyed when its so __ hot and he refuses to allow me to turn on the AC. major RAHR.
ok shall drop topic because its aggravating me.
now for some lovely belated posts.
went for third service yesterday! haha i really missed the old gang and it was GREAT hanging out with them again. <3
ooh and the center of attention of the day was erm. my new sunglasses? haha so many people became bugs and flies.
first dean decided to try before service started
then lydia, who took the earlier picture, decided to give it a try
ok the lighting's weird because it was a bit dark and the flash from dean's phone was kinda white and directly glaring at our faces. haha. i guess thats where the shades come in >.<
ok so anyways after service a bunch of us went to ya kun kaya toast while some of the guys went off to play dota.
and we met this really sweet lady who told us she was from new crea too, and decided to just bless us with free donuts that we had been wanting to eat but were reluctant to queue for ( cos she told us she queued for half an hour plus).
a pic with shir around lunch time :)
and anyways, after all that we went to prata house at upp thomson for dinner!
we as in : jemz, jarett, shirmaine, dean, sam and me! :D
lols on the way we were spamming each other (my phone's best at spamming lol.it made jarett's phone hang! ok >.<" ) over bluetooth with pictures of each other from whenever.
a really young dean O.O like when we first met him or something. HAHA.
and the good, too bad its shaky.
the bad? not really la.
looks a bit wrong this. dean and preston
tim and hog. ok this wasnt in circulation yesterday but its here now :) i came by it while scrolling. haha.
the funny
not to mention the vain.
alongside taking more buggy shots of course.
and one of sam at prata house. jemz said he looks like a perv. LOL.
all in all, good fun. I MISSED ALL OF YOU. :D <3
am annoyed with my dad. we had a great talk in the absence of my step-mother the other day but then i just got really annoyed when its so __ hot and he refuses to allow me to turn on the AC. major RAHR.
ok shall drop topic because its aggravating me.
now for some lovely belated posts.
went for third service yesterday! haha i really missed the old gang and it was GREAT hanging out with them again. <3
ooh and the center of attention of the day was erm. my new sunglasses? haha so many people became bugs and flies.
first dean decided to try before service started
then lydia, who took the earlier picture, decided to give it a try
ok the lighting's weird because it was a bit dark and the flash from dean's phone was kinda white and directly glaring at our faces. haha. i guess thats where the shades come in >.<
ok so anyways after service a bunch of us went to ya kun kaya toast while some of the guys went off to play dota.
and we met this really sweet lady who told us she was from new crea too, and decided to just bless us with free donuts that we had been wanting to eat but were reluctant to queue for ( cos she told us she queued for half an hour plus).
a pic with shir around lunch time :)
and anyways, after all that we went to prata house at upp thomson for dinner!
we as in : jemz, jarett, shirmaine, dean, sam and me! :D
lols on the way we were spamming each other (my phone's best at spamming lol.it made jarett's phone hang! ok >.<" ) over bluetooth with pictures of each other from whenever.
a really young dean O.O like when we first met him or something. HAHA.
and the good, too bad its shaky.
the bad? not really la.
looks a bit wrong this. dean and preston
tim and hog. ok this wasnt in circulation yesterday but its here now :) i came by it while scrolling. haha.
the funny
not to mention the vain.
alongside taking more buggy shots of course.
and one of sam at prata house. jemz said he looks like a perv. LOL.
all in all, good fun. I MISSED ALL OF YOU. :D <3
Thursday, 21 June 2007
oh my poor brain. it's addled by the hosts of indonesian, filipinno, singaporean, thai, burmese and malaysian political parties' names and their leaders. O.o
Proverbs 2:6
For the Lord gives wisdom,
From His mouth come knowledge and understanding.
James 1:5
if any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask of God, who gives to all liberally and without reproach, and it will be given to him.
methinks that the ol' prophet James had mine own face in mind when he uttered forth those words. but 'alas, it doth give hope to mine own befuddled soul, as paul had in his proclaiming that the Christ giveth to his beloveds, grace enough for each day.
give thanks brethren, and though the trials of the Lit exam cometh quickly tmr, knowest in thine heart that thy Lord is with you. amen.
and i credit that to reading great expectations by charles dickens. oh my brain.
Proverbs 2:6
For the Lord gives wisdom,
From His mouth come knowledge and understanding.
James 1:5
if any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask of God, who gives to all liberally and without reproach, and it will be given to him.
methinks that the ol' prophet James had mine own face in mind when he uttered forth those words. but 'alas, it doth give hope to mine own befuddled soul, as paul had in his proclaiming that the Christ giveth to his beloveds, grace enough for each day.
give thanks brethren, and though the trials of the Lit exam cometh quickly tmr, knowest in thine heart that thy Lord is with you. amen.
and i credit that to reading great expectations by charles dickens. oh my brain.
Monday, 18 June 2007
time to recall, recall that first touch of Jesus upon my heart and my life.
ngl camp. seems so long ago. evangelion camp.encounter jesus camp.
but unforgettable, and so so precious.for that time, just to cut off all else and chase after what's most important, what's eternal and cast away all objects of that are only temporary, to cast away what can only be classified as our concerns of vanity.
"His living water we desire, to flood our hearts with holy fire."
that touch of Your presence. to see youths come in with pain, seclusion and betrayal, pride and rebellion etched on their faces only to humbly raise their hands at altar call, raise their hands and say the sinners prayer.
to see those who look so strong let loose floods of tears, kneeling before you, laid out on the floor, shocked by the magnitude of Your love. tears in their eyes.
when did i start forgetting? when did i become so removed from all these?
call it all into remembrance.
ngl camp. seems so long ago. evangelion camp.encounter jesus camp.
but unforgettable, and so so precious.for that time, just to cut off all else and chase after what's most important, what's eternal and cast away all objects of that are only temporary, to cast away what can only be classified as our concerns of vanity.
"His living water we desire, to flood our hearts with holy fire."
that touch of Your presence. to see youths come in with pain, seclusion and betrayal, pride and rebellion etched on their faces only to humbly raise their hands at altar call, raise their hands and say the sinners prayer.
to see those who look so strong let loose floods of tears, kneeling before you, laid out on the floor, shocked by the magnitude of Your love. tears in their eyes.
when did i start forgetting? when did i become so removed from all these?
call it all into remembrance.
woohoo been too lazy to blog so here's a squashed together post of the many many things that have happened over the past week or so.
9 JUNE 07 SATURDAY
had arrow meeting and celebrated ruoyun's birthday!! :D
happy birthday ruoyun! :D
13 JUNE 07 WEDNESDAY
lunch with yang yan and the caregroup at cathay cineleisure, then ben and jerry's and so some photos :))
yang yan
george and yeu keed
dave and joel
coach gary
haha coach thought that by tilting his head back he was out of the picture. oh no no no. x)
anyways after watching oceans 13 with caregroup, had dinner with kaleni, victoria, darrell, vernon, sheueying, joel, zac (sultanate nuggets).
omg i thought i would die of laughter when darrell was telling zac the story of hansel and gretel. nuggets never heard it before. x) "and then hansel would let her feel the chicken bone everytime she wanted to test how fat he was..."
we love you sultanate nuggets!
so anyways, nuggets, sheueying and joel had to go off first, so the rest of us went to hang out for a bit.
first we took some normal pictures.
well, sorta normal i guess.
then darrell wanted some weird pictures.
with him
of him
and later of other people
*note darrell squashing kal's head. libya and usa are friends!
then he decided to take "artistic" pictures
actually quite nice la. >.< haha :D
and he took a trip to emoland
and we kinda tagged along too.
and who can forget the standard group photo of course?
15 JUNE 07 FRIDAY
In the Zone Youth Concert! whee planetshakers!
anyways, it was fun fun fun but i forgot to take pictures during the concert. but i made up for that slight before and after :))
so while we were in queue and waiting waiting to go in (it was SCORCHING hot)
dean whom i saved from thirst with ginger beer x)
mr yeu keed who had queued from like 3?
waiting waiting with amanda
the busy busy ushers who so kindly opened the entrance doors while we were waiting to save us from the heat. i love aircon.
so after the whole event
amanda
three lovelies
yangyan's sister -who accepted Christ that very day!!!!!-, yangyan and sheryl
jolene :D
and with pearlyn :))
brenda!
han yuen
beverly: birthday girl! happy 21st! :D
charles: i wanna go out and meet my boyfriend in the middle of the night when i'm 21 too.
hokays man.
the magnificient intercept.
whose foot?
mr.culprit. hogan.
what a long post. goodnight, or rather, morning.
9 JUNE 07 SATURDAY
had arrow meeting and celebrated ruoyun's birthday!! :D
happy birthday ruoyun! :D
13 JUNE 07 WEDNESDAY
lunch with yang yan and the caregroup at cathay cineleisure, then ben and jerry's and so some photos :))
yang yan
george and yeu keed
dave and joel
coach gary
haha coach thought that by tilting his head back he was out of the picture. oh no no no. x)
anyways after watching oceans 13 with caregroup, had dinner with kaleni, victoria, darrell, vernon, sheueying, joel, zac (sultanate nuggets).
omg i thought i would die of laughter when darrell was telling zac the story of hansel and gretel. nuggets never heard it before. x) "and then hansel would let her feel the chicken bone everytime she wanted to test how fat he was..."
we love you sultanate nuggets!
so anyways, nuggets, sheueying and joel had to go off first, so the rest of us went to hang out for a bit.
first we took some normal pictures.
well, sorta normal i guess.
then darrell wanted some weird pictures.
with him
of him
and later of other people
*note darrell squashing kal's head. libya and usa are friends!
then he decided to take "artistic" pictures
actually quite nice la. >.< haha :D
and he took a trip to emoland
and we kinda tagged along too.
and who can forget the standard group photo of course?
15 JUNE 07 FRIDAY
In the Zone Youth Concert! whee planetshakers!
anyways, it was fun fun fun but i forgot to take pictures during the concert. but i made up for that slight before and after :))
so while we were in queue and waiting waiting to go in (it was SCORCHING hot)
dean whom i saved from thirst with ginger beer x)
mr yeu keed who had queued from like 3?
waiting waiting with amanda
the busy busy ushers who so kindly opened the entrance doors while we were waiting to save us from the heat. i love aircon.
so after the whole event
amanda
three lovelies
yangyan's sister -who accepted Christ that very day!!!!!-, yangyan and sheryl
jolene :D
and with pearlyn :))
brenda!
han yuen
beverly: birthday girl! happy 21st! :D
charles: i wanna go out and meet my boyfriend in the middle of the night when i'm 21 too.
hokays man.
the magnificient intercept.
whose foot?
mr.culprit. hogan.
what a long post. goodnight, or rather, morning.
Tuesday, 12 June 2007
SMUN
haha back from smun a few days ago, what a whole lot of drama! but well the people were all great fun and we go thru it all together yeah?
Anyways, we have the coolest reso man! France got partitioned, where the good wine of Southern France stayed intact with Ezra, Vernon got his ass nuked, Palestinians got Northern France and the parts of it unoccupied by the Palestinians became Russia's nuclear wasteland. The "Muslim Brothers", namely Sudan, Syria and LIbya (MINE AND BERN'S =D ), plus Malaysia, Indonesia declared jihad on the rest of the world, PRC invaded East Asia and Japan declared kamikaze. what a mess.
and we all hail the ruler of the newly established world, Sultanate Nuggets!
haha and that was Sultan sitting on nuked-France.
this is nuggets and his look-alike Kartik !
the lovely US delegates that dominated DISEC just as the real US would have >.< best position paper, honourable mention - overachievers lala.
not to forget our best delegation, Japan: Munsoor and Shu Xie (i will NEVER forget Munsoor's comments whenever ahem ahem cough cough started a motion, not to mention bern's swearing x)
the muslim bloc x) haha the crazy bunch
with ms. russia, Liesel
Germany's Nazis :))
crazy boys ezra and kelvin who had been soaring, flying, going to candy mountain with charlie and dancing to "girly man" the night before.
mexico! lakukaracha~
darrell and kezhong
some random crazy nuts hahaha
DISEC! :D
with indo and ezra'a ghost that appeared outta nowhere x)
the syrian muslim brother :) who has weird hobbies of taking candid pictures and zooming in on people's faces after.
the brazilians x)
more lovely people :))
and last but definitely not least, my one and only partner, bern <3
Anyways, we have the coolest reso man! France got partitioned, where the good wine of Southern France stayed intact with Ezra, Vernon got his ass nuked, Palestinians got Northern France and the parts of it unoccupied by the Palestinians became Russia's nuclear wasteland. The "Muslim Brothers", namely Sudan, Syria and LIbya (MINE AND BERN'S =D ), plus Malaysia, Indonesia declared jihad on the rest of the world, PRC invaded East Asia and Japan declared kamikaze. what a mess.
and we all hail the ruler of the newly established world, Sultanate Nuggets!
haha and that was Sultan sitting on nuked-France.
this is nuggets and his look-alike Kartik !
the lovely US delegates that dominated DISEC just as the real US would have >.< best position paper, honourable mention - overachievers lala.
not to forget our best delegation, Japan: Munsoor and Shu Xie (i will NEVER forget Munsoor's comments whenever ahem ahem cough cough started a motion, not to mention bern's swearing x)
the muslim bloc x) haha the crazy bunch
with ms. russia, Liesel
Germany's Nazis :))
crazy boys ezra and kelvin who had been soaring, flying, going to candy mountain with charlie and dancing to "girly man" the night before.
mexico! lakukaracha~
darrell and kezhong
some random crazy nuts hahaha
DISEC! :D
with indo and ezra'a ghost that appeared outta nowhere x)
the syrian muslim brother :) who has weird hobbies of taking candid pictures and zooming in on people's faces after.
the brazilians x)
more lovely people :))
and last but definitely not least, my one and only partner, bern <3
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