You get me

So I'm a little left of center
I'm a little out of tune
Some say I'm paranormal
So I just bend their spoon
Who wants to be ordinary
In a crazy, mixed-up world
I don't care what they're sayin'
As long as I'm your girl

Hey, you are on my side
And they, they just roll their eyes

You get me
When nobody understands
You come and take the chance, baby
You get me
You look inside my wild mind
Never knowing what you'll find
And still you want me all the time
Yeah, you do
Yeah, you get me

So what if I see the sunshine
In the pouring rain
Some people think I'm crazy
But you say it's okay
You've seen my secret garden
Where all of my flowers grow
In my imagination
Anything goes

I, I am all you want
They, they just read me wrong

You get me
When nobody understands
You come and hold my hand, baby
You get me
You look inside my wild mind
Never knowing what you'll find
Still you want me all the time
Yeah, you do
'Cause you get me

Hey, you are on my side
They, they just roll their eyes
Yeah, yeah, yeah

'Cause you get me
When nobody understands
You come and take the chance, baby
You get me
When none of the pieces fit
You make sense of it
You get me
You look inside my wild mind
Never knowing what you'll find
And still I want you all the time
Yeah, I do
'Cause you get me

my only hope

ONLY HOPE


There's a song that's inside of my soul
It's the one that I've tried to write over and over again
I'm awake in the infinite cold
But You sing to me over and over and over again


So I lay my head back down
And I lift my hands
and pray to be only Yours
I pray to be only Yours
I know now You're my only hope


Sing to me the song of the stars
Of Your galaxy dancing and laughing
and laughing again
When it feels like my dreams are so far
Sing to me of the plans that You have for me over again


So I lay my head back down
And I lift my hands and pray
To be only Yours
I pray to be only Yours
I know now You're my only hope


I give You my destiny
I'm giving You all of me
I want Your symphony
Singing in all that I am
At the top of my lungs I'm giving it back


So I lay my head back down
And I lift my hands and pray
To be only Yours
I pray to be only Yours
I pray to be only Yours
I know now You're my only hope






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i found a nice song. mm. who would have thought mandy moore sings christian songs? its actually the nicest song (at least i feel) she's ever done.


but at least she's right about something. that He's really our only hope. everything else is fallible or breakable, temporial and unreliable.

chase after He who is absolute, who is Life and Truth itself, and everything else will chase after you.

"For your Heavenly Father knows you have need of all these things. But seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will be added to you."

sure, you can tell yourself, "no, i won't pay attention to all these temporial things," but can you really sway yourself? the only way you can actually do it is to be "distracted" FULLY by the love of Christ. such that when you fall so totally in love with Him that you have no attention span for anything else - NOT to say that you neglect your responsibilites, for the Christ in you will EMPOWER you to fulfill them - but that your heart's desire is most acutely set on the love and the person of Jesus Christ.

Because everything else can strive for perfection, can attempt to attain it, but even the sweetest person can get angry at times, even the most beautiful thing you can imagine may be unappreciated by someone else. humans are fallible, objects are breakable. nothing, apart from the person of Jesus Christ and His finished work lasts forever.

i guess i can say all this because i know for a fact how fallible people are, how everything else doesn't last. no, i'm not being emo, i'm just stating it as a fact. sure, i can get upset still at times, but i'm fallible as well. but my security, the absolutes in my life aren't constuctions or perceptions of truth construed by man but a person, that of Jesus Christ. sure, theories are nice, but guess what, that's all they are: theories.

whether or not we want to be disappointed, is your choice. sure, try as you might to attribute your disappointment to something "outside" of your control, ultimately it ties back to whether YOU are willing to sink into such an abyss of peace and love that hey, the world may sway but you won't.

just how much are you willing to allow yourself to fall in love with Him?

you might lose control, you might lose yourself, might lose your grip on His hand but more importantly, do you know that all the while, He's the one holding onto you?

smiling, the child
dances between the puddles,
laughs as the rain pours down,
pretending that its lemon drops falling,
attempting to catch with her mouth open,
as the old candy drops song had suggested.

sure, to reminisce does not equate to re-living it all. but it comes pretty close.

i miss the days when you were five and the world was simpler,
a time when i could run over and be sure that you'd meet me there.

rest

sometimes i just like to immerse myself in songs like this piano one thats playing right now on my blog. sure, its highly sentimental in the way it flows, but too bad if you dont like it, cause i happen to enjoy it. i wouldn't go as far as to say it makes me happy - hardly, considering how "emo" it is - but i like the way , at least for me, it sort of brings me to another time and another place, and makes me remember things and thoughts which are precious to me, and what is important to me in my life; which i happen to forget, all too often.

i could go on and on about this, but i'd really rather just sit back and enjoy.

i wish that i had the time to do the same in life, time where a person could just kick back and enjoy what's been placed on this earth by God for us to enjoy. but everything nowadays is rushrushrush, queuequeuequeue, that hardly anything's "fun" anymore. ok shall stop whining, think i just needed to get that out of my system.

i need rest. and yeah, as pastor said, the only thing God ever said that we should fear is that we not enter into His rest.

i remember my brother once told me, that if you asked yourself, "do i feel tired?" or have the compulsion to simply rest, you can be assured that you haven't been resting. its like a light kinda dawned upon me, like, oh yeah, that's true. all too often we labour and labour, getting caught up in the twists and turns of our daily lives that we sub-consciously place Jesus and His finished work aside, with a post-it note that says : erm, i'll get back to this later. sounds familiar? yeah it does to me too, so join the club or we can have an altar-call for liars ;)

the King that came to serve and love

:) arrow was a blast today!

pastor chin's message was cool and really, simple but powerful. like what the leader's have been saying for ages, that hey, to give to others you have to first receive, or you won't have anything to give anyways. and its so true.

cause when you're all empty inside, even the smiles that you give don't come from the heart, the slightest thing can get you upset and even words of encouragement that you give to those whom you care about seem hollow.

but like pastor said, i guess we all really have to come to the place where we realise that the one thing needful, that daily manna (bread) that we receive is important to start our day with the right mindset, the consciousness of how big and who our God is. that with the washing of our feet, the receiving of the service of the Servant King that is girded with righteousness and faithfulness, such that everywhere we walk in the walk of this life on earth is blessed ground, for the blessings of God are upon the person, not the land.

i never want to come to a place whereby i lose sight of all this, because i know the moment i take my eyes off Him, everything else in my life swings off-balance. its been tried and tested, and i really don't care to try that again.

"your inability to hear God does not overpower God's ability to speak to you."

sounds logical huh, because otherwise we would be saying that God's ability is lesser than ours wouldn't we?
now how come that never occurred to us earlier huh... >.<

thank God its not our part that matters, but His :)

i think its really lovely.

the way the faces of newlywed couples seem to just glow, even when they look so cutely-silly, walking out of the mrt with cardboard boxes strapped to their backs from ikea.

or the look on the baby's face when his mom's playing peek-a-boo.

and the best part is, they don't even realise it. i guess that makes it all the more beautiful.



happy birthday singapore :)